I've learned to love the pain , cause it's the only way that I know how to feel .

Sorry it's been so long since I've updated . Things around here are hectic wth back-to-school preperations and there's been a couple deaths within my family and friends this past week . I'm going to try to update more , but please note : school does start for me Tuesday , and I babysit full-time . Not necesarily a fan , but it's money .

I've taken to spending alot of time in my room with a book , and the music blasting . Lately it's been the same songs over and over . I've come to call them , The Soundtrack of my Summer . These songs are ;

• The Only Way That I Know How To Feel - Boys Like Girls
• Here By Me - 3 Doors Down
• Jasey Rae (Acoustic) - All Time Low
• Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
• Love Drunk - Boys Like Girls
• Ho Ho Hopefully - The Maine
• Everything I Ask For - The Maine
• Somebody's Me - Enrique Iglesias
• Thunder (Acoustic) - Boys Like Girls
• Weightless - All Time Low
• Cops And Robbers - A Rocket To The Moon
• Baby, We're Invincible - A Rocket To The Moon

Of course there's more , but those are the most played .

Recently , The Maine has become a big part of my life . Could it be the fact that come November 15, I will be at a concert of there's with Boys Like Girls, Cobra Starship, A Rocket To The Moon, and VersaEmerge in Toronto? Maybe .

Most of my updates these days are going to be short . I have alot on my mind . With going back to school and all the drama circulating through my family ... I feel like there's no one there to talk to .

One of my closest friends and I (whom we shall call 'C'), are starting to grow apart which is upsetting me deeply. 'C' is my life and he means everything to me . He's been there for me through everything since mid-December. I know it doesn't seem that long, but we clicked automatically. It's hard to describe unless you know me. Anyways, with us growing apart, I'm keeping everything inside again ... And it's beginning to take it's toll .

But gotta go, the kid I'm babysitting is awake.

I'll update soon .

SamanthaaLeighh . <3